Mornings after are always anomalous.
The sun now peaking its glow, equally bright and comforting, just enough to make me feel care-free like I had bathed in the sacred river and exalted all the grime and sin I carried.
It was not that simple. I said before this was not magic or witchcraft, just the flow of nature and the calculation of science. Affirmation is nothing without action. Your words mean nothing without the energy and purpose behind them. I washed myself of the past, the scars, the mental poisons and toxicities ailing my heart, mind, and soul. I made a vow to open myself to healing, learning, and loving all that are willing to receive it.
Just like the seasons where trees do not wither overnight, and flowers do not bloom by the first day of spring neither will a life be changed completely.
I was given a new day, a clean start, an opportunity to transform and be better than what I wanted to leave behind.
This means to release all the insecurities I had for myself, hateful attitudes, and eerie feelings to those who I have wronged and them that have wronged me. I no longer will blame the past for any of my actions in the present.
I was leaving behind selfish tendencies.
I was discarding the confusion between love and control.
I was breaking the idea that money is my ruler and key to better days.
I was letting go of the stress and pressures to be complete
Initially I woke up with the idea that my world had completely changed, and everything was in my favor, but the tests of life are not graded by the answers you give the Universe but the heart to continue. Like scars you don’t completely heal overnight - disinfect the wound and secure it so that the body can restore itself. Your spiritual and mental body works the same.
Although I made these claims I had to work towards it becoming my truth.
Correcting when I notice myself reverting to a negative state of mind. Taking the time to conceptualize other’s intentions and understand all sides to situations. Learning the depths of what compassion means and practicing it even when I feel exhausted of all positive energy. Sometimes I didn’t have enough discipline to withstand the more mentally taxing days. Some days the grey bled through me like pages in a book. Most days I was in the right mind set and ready to be all that I wanted and needed to be for myself.
The most important part of the journey to enlightenment is discipline. No matter how many times the wind blows, you must be firm enough to withstand its spell. When you fall off the path it is important to not dwell in discouragement and what you consider as failure. Wrong turns and bad days do not equate to the end game, the puzzle pieces are just not meant where you are trying to fit them.
Wax crescent moon: the second phase in the eight of the moon phases is meant for intentions, hopes, and wishes.
Where is your mind? Where do you desire to go? You can not have results without the energy to create them, even if you’re not successful the first time, does not mean it is the last chance.